Is in college attempting to update my blog. Lets see how long this last. As I am going back around 4 and it is now 3.33. Lets just see how far I can go. As not many of you may know, I was away at camp from 17 December until 20 December. It was fun and filled with activities. I know, I know that I am a bit late as it is now 7 of January. What can I say, I have been to lazy and well mainly just lazy. I have no other reason or accuse as to why I did not update earlier.( Day 1 )

Here I am sitting in my room typing this post because there is simply nothing else to do. I don't really know what to write about, so I guess I might as well give you an update of how I am doing now. Well as of now, I am having a 4 month long vacation. Yes you heard me (or more like read) 4 MONTHS long holiday. I have just finish my foundation and is still dwelling on what university I should enter. As of now, it is pretty much a blank for me.



Back to the point, my holiday so far had been pretty boring not to mention torturing. There is absolutely nothing to do. I am running out of things to do. Before my break started, all I could think of was having holidays. Now I really wish I was back in the class room where I could hang out with friends and socialise. Here I am coop up in my room with nothing to do except going online all day. My daily routine consist of me waking up around noon, eat lunch, online until dinner time, eat dinner than online again until well into the the wee hours in the morning. That is right, that is all that I have been doing up until today.

Once again I have run off topic. Continuing with the topic, this holiday has been nothing but torture to me. Missing that someone special and not being able to be with him is torture enough. Now to put that I have not heard from him for almost a week is even more torturing. The reason why is because he is currently on a trip with his family. Here I am with nothing to do. I am seriously running out of things to do. i have just completed a 500 piece jigsaw puzzle that is smaller than an A4 size paper. Now I need to find something to occupy my time. Something more useful than finishing up a jigsaw puzzle that is.

Haih!!! At times like this, I really hate holidays. All I do is online the whole day, which is also in the process of ruining my eye-sight. Boy, is this unhealthy. I need some sports in my life.

I am really bored of the holiday and is in need of hanging out with friends. Boy is 4 months a long time. Haih!!! The wait is excruciating. Oh! One more important thing that I forgot to mention is that my results will be coming out on the 8 of December. Hope everything goes well. I am doom! Oh well!! Will just patiently wait for the results to be release.

 As stated in the title above, here is a list of 10 or maybe more than 10, I just cant stop wanting things. It is normal after all, I am a girl. I can't believe I just said that, what is wrong with me. ARGHH!!! Something is seriously wrong with me. Oh well. Anyway, back to the topic, 10 things (hopefully it will stay at 10) that I want, it doesn't really have to be for Christmas, you could just surprise me any time you want. Really, I would thank you and treat you out for a meal (a cheap meal of course)

1. The new model of the Ipod Touch. Have you guys check it out. It is a must get item. If only it was sold in Malaysia now. I guess I will just        have to wait until the stock comes. Haih!!! That is going to be one long wait
     
As you can see, it is AWESOME. It even has its own camera.

2. A life size Domo-Kun. That would really be an awesome way to scare people out of my room. Really wish I could get a life size Domo-Kun. Haih!!! If only someone would get it for me. Unfortunately it cost a bomb and my parents don't let me have it. *SNIFF*

Isn't it just to die for. So adorable. The reason for me wanting the life-size version is simple, I just want to scare the living daylights out of anybody who trespass my room. (I know, I'm evil. But what can I say, you trespass and face the wrath of me. MUAHAHAHA!!!!)

3. To get good grades in my exams without studying (if only that was possible.)

Fat chance of that ever happening. Oh well.

4. To get Kon from Bleach. He is just so cute and adorable with his extremely flat head.

Isn't it just the cutest thing you ever saw. Can somebody buy this for me? Please.

5. A television in my room. Oh! That would be a dream come true. It is sad that my dad realise that it would be a bad idea to put a television in my room as I would then ultimately never leave my room unless if its for a toilet break and meal time. That is why, Ii still do not have a television in my room. Oh sad sad me.

Wouldn't it be cool if I did have a television in my room. Oh well, at times happiness needs to be put aside due to parents decision. Not that it bothers me. Who am I kidding. It really does bothers me. But I guess there is nothing I can do about it. HAIH!!!

6. To buy and read the book by Darren Shan called The Thin Executioner. I am sure it is an awesome book as all his books are a great read and very enjoyable that is if you like reading horror books.

This is going to be a good book. I can't wait to buy it and read it.

7. Be able to travel to many different countries and experience their culture there. That should be really fun and exciting. I love travelling but unfortunately I can't do that often as my dad does not like to travel to anywhere far.

What can I say, clearly the picture says it all.

8. This is just one of my wildest dreams, but I really do hope that it comes true. To be able to ride all the trilling rides all over the world. Every roller coaster made by men and machine there is. Bot, would that be fun. Really wish that was possible. If only I had enough money to fulfil want number 7. Oh well. It is still worth putting it in anyway.
 

9. A GPS as I have yet to learn the roads. For now I will just settle with getting a GPS as it is an essential item for me.

If I were to get, I can say so long to my days of staying at home and hello to the world of KL that is.

10. Be able to catch a Chemist mouse. This is from a game in Facebook called Mouse hunt.

Isn't it such an adorable mouse. really hope I can catch it soon.

WOW!!! Who knew listing down 10 things could be so hard. I guess being greedy is something I'm just not use to. I guess it is better to be humble rather than greedy. Who am I kidding. Boy, this took me a long time to come up with this list. I taught that it would be easy to come out with 10 or more things but boy was I dead wrong. Oh well, Its getting late, I should be hitting the sack. Well like I said SHOULD. Knowing me, It is highly unlikely for that to happen. I really do wish all this 10 things come to me.

I am finally done with this post. It took me awhile. Oh well, better late than never. 

 I can't take this any more. I Just have to let it out before I explode. I just can't seem to stop thinking about it. To a point where I can't really concentrate on my studies, which is not really a good thing. This has been bugging me for the past, I'm not really sure how many months, but it has been bugging me for quite sometime already.

I just don't get it. Why do you have to do all this when it is also hurting you. Do you have to always walk off whenever the both of us are together. Do you know how much that hurts every time you do that. If it is also hurting for you, then why do it? Walking off is not going to solve anything, it is only going to make it worst. It is still going to be the same, whether a not you do walk off or stay with us if you feel hurt when you walk off. But I guess you would prefer to walk off rather than watch us being close. Its okay. I understand. All you care about is yourself only. I guess it is to be expected.

Another thing that I don't get is why do you have to lie to us. If you are not going to be truthful, then just don't say anything. It is just going to hurt us more when we find out that you have been lying to us all these while. Is it really necessary to lie when you still don't really trust us or are you just trying to make it seem like you did nothing wrong and everybody just seems to be hurting you for no apparent reason. That is just a bunch of nonsense. Do you enjoy hurting yourself? I'm sure nobody enjoys getting hurt. I just don't get it. Do you have to lie all the time? If you don't want to tell us then just don't. We understand and respect your privacy. Do you actually care about how other people feel when you treat them like this? Do you know how much it hurts knowing that somebody you really trust has been lying to you all this while? I don't think so.

Although I have forgiven you for your action, that does not mean that I will forget what you have done. What is done is done, the damage has been done and can never be fixed. Maybe not in this lifetime. I just don't get it how some people can be so selfish and only care about their own feelings. I guess it is true that we are all alone in this world. Who need friends if they are all like you. I just don't see why you have to do all this. What do you want exactly? Do you want attention? Who do you want the attention from? You can't be expecting to be given attention all the time. What is so nice about people giving you attention anyway? Don't you get enough attention at home? I know I'm asking a lot of question, but I just cant take it any more. Day in, day out, all I can think about is what you did to me. What did I ever do to you to deserve this kind of treatment? That is all I want to know. I just can't stop thinking about it. Even when I sleep, I dream of what you did to me. It just keeps on haunting me over and over again. There was also a period of time when I did not really sleep because I did not want to be haunted by you in my dreams.

Right now, I'm not sure if I should feel happy or hurt that you have decided to stop talking to us completely and also ignoring us. In some ways, I do feel happy that you are not talking to us any more as I don't have to feel hurt by you any more. But on the other hand, I feel hurt because you think that by cutting off all contacts with each other can help solve the problem and lessen this feeling of hurtfulness. Well, You are wrong. By doing that, You are actually just hurting us and yourself even more. 

I'm just ranting out all my pent up feelings that I have been holding it in all this while. I can't continue keeping it in as I will not be able to concentrate in anything that I do if I continue to keep it in. I also am not good at expressing it by talking. So here I am writing this post as a way to release all this tension that has been building up inside of me. Sorry to anyone who may be offended when they are reading this post. This is just how I am feeling right now. It is not a very nice feeling and I do not want to feel like this any more. Hence, the post as I can no longer take it any more. I am very close to exploding and need to just get it out of my mind and what better way then to write about it. Million apologies for wasting your time reading how I have been feeling for the past few months.

Here I am writing out this post when I have a ton of homework and assignments that is yet to be tackle. But what the heck, I find updating this post much more interesting compared to completing all my homework and assignments. I seem to have much more motivation on updating my journal compared to completing my work which seems to be never ending. Along with the never ending homework and assignment, I am also very good friends with Mr. Procrastination. He has been with me all through high school up until now. He seems to be one of my best companion, never leaving my side even when I want him to leave. Haih. The things I put up with just doesn't seem to benefit me in anyway. What am I to do. He just does not want to leave me, let me repeat, DOES NOT WANT TO LEAVE AT ALL. Oh well, I guess this is just meant to be. 

I am currently playing this game on facebook called Mouse Hunt. Although you don't really do much there except for planning a trap to catch mice but it requires a lot of patience and also determination to actually continue playing the game as it is just that boring. None the less I am still paying the game with full enthusiasm as I have not been playing it for long and is waiting to see what type of mouse I can catch in the later stage. There are also all sorts of cool mouse in there.

Examples of some of the cool mouse that I have encountered 
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"Life is like a box of chocolate, you never know what you are going to get." (Forest Gump) 

Okay so I did not hear this from Forest Gump but it still came from there so I think it still counts.

Like the saying says it all, life is very unexpected and it can come and bite you in the bottom when you least expect it. That is what exactly happen to me. I think. I'm not really sure either.

Well for one, I am completely not paying attention in most if not all of my classes, I am very far behind in my maths as I am completely lost and have the faintest idea what is going on in class and then there is Globalisation where that is not to bad exact for the fact that it is getting a bit boring. Last but certainly not the least there is Econs. Lets just put it that I am completely not interested in Econs and wish that I have chosen a different subject instead. But overall it is not too bad as I have not failed any test yet but I did not do too good in the test either. Lets just hope that I will not be taking a 3rd semester. Oh boy, that is really going too suck if that actually happens. Not only that, I am also going to get one hack of a scolding from my parents. Oh well, even if that happens, life still goes on only less enjoyable.

Besides college, life have been reasonably enjoyable. Being able to go out almost every weekend and trying my very best to enjoy life to fullest as much as possible before the work load start accumulating. Actually, I think my work is already starting to accumulate. I have been very lazy recently and has started my old habit of procrastinating. Which I know from previous experience that it is not a very wise idea to procrastinate especially when you know that it will only cause you stress at the end of the day. I am currently filled to the brim with homework and it just seems like it is never going to end which I think that is exactly what is going to happen very soon. That is unless I start finishing up my homework now. Which I know for one that it is highly impossible for me to do such a feat. Oh well, it is my decision and I shall suffer the consequences of it. There just seems to be a never ending load of homework and assignment and I will never know when I would actually find the time to finish it without having any disturbance.

But none the less I am happy as I have someone by my side all the time and is always willing to help me and encourage me to study when I am feeling extremely lazy. It is always a nice feeling when you have somebody to care for you and will always be there for you no matter what and I really just want to thank that person. I have never had anyone who has treated me like this before and it feels nice.

I am just to stress and just could not be bothered much about my work as I am doing this post when I should actually be doing my homework and my research project and studying. But like I said, I COULD NOT BE BOTHERED. I will just be very stress for the next few weeks as there seems to be either a test or a quiz on every week. When is this torture going to end? 

This is a bit late. My classes started back on the 5th of July. On the first day nothing much happen. All we did was go there and choose our time table and also collect our exam result. WOW!!! Imagine after more than a month of holiday and doing absolutely nothing, going back to college was like something to look forward too. I spend my holiday just stoning at home. There is absolutely nothing to do. It was pure torture. Was practically dying of boredom. I only went out a few times with friends to go and watch a movie. That is practically what I did during the break. Lets just say that it was an uneventful semester break.

We were finally able to find out how we did for our Malaysian Studies exam. I don't really know if it was pure luck or a total miracle but I was really surprise with my result. Why do I say that. This is due to the fact that I can barely past my History paper in High school. Actually I don't think I did pass also. It is really a miracle that I not only pass, I got a B for my Malaysian Studies. This means that I don't have to take Malaysian Studies in University. WOOHOO!!!!

Besides going back to college to choose our time table and collecting our result, we also go back to meet up with our friends that we may have not seen each other through out the whole month of June. Really just spend the first day just talking with friends and catching up with them. See what they have been doing during the holiday.

This semester I decided to drop computer science and try economics for a change. I may have made the biggest mistake of my life. Economics is seriously boring. My 8.30 class is suppose to keep me awake, but every time I enter the class I feel like sleeping only. Last semester was fun. I had Globalisation as my first class. That always wakes me up. The class is always so lively and full of energy. One can always get a good laugh in that class. There are a lot of interesting characters in that class. Besides that, I finish class at 5.30 every Monday and Thursday. I took me an hour to get home today. When it would normally take me 20 minutes to get home. Of course that is when I am driving at 100 km/h. But that is not the point. The point is it is a bad idea to end class at 5.30 when all the office people are going back at that time. It is a massive headache to be going back at that time. Everywhere also jam.

I start class at 8.30 everyday except Friday. On Friday I start class at 9.45. Even though I start class at that time, I still have to go early due to lack of parking space in the campus. I am always in college before 8 everyday. Will just go there and stone until class start. Friday is a very relaxing day. I only go there for 1 class. I finish class at 11 every Friday. I can go out every Friday. By doing so, I am just burning a hole in my wallet permanently

I feel like the living dead. I am so bored at home that I actually feel like killing myself. There is absolutely nothing to do. All I do all day is sleep very late and just watch tv and go online. There is no life to this at all. How much more boring and dull can life get. Just kill me now. Luckily there is such a thing called sms. If not i would really be dead by now.

A picture says a thousand words. This just shows how I am feeling right now

Just really wish I had things to do. If not i would end up like this.

6th feet under.

I know this a bit late, but oh well. On the 3rd of June, a few friends and I decided to go to Genting Highlands for a day. It was a fun and enjoyable experience as we went alone without the accompanyment of any parents. It was a one day trip.

We were told to meet at KL Sentral at 9 to have breakfast before we leave at 10.30 by bus. Well I had to go early as I had no transport if I went later. Luckily for me one of my friend was already at KL Sentral ordering breakfast for himself. My timing was just right as I came when he was ordering breakfast and I did not have to line up in the long line that have form behind him. We sat down and ate our breakfast while waititng for the others to come. Eventually they all came, some were later then the other. But we all still manage to have our breakfast before we headed off to the place where the bus would pick us up. The bus ride there was an uneventful journey as nothing much happen in that one hour long trip up. I was feeling a bit tired as I did not sleep much the night before. I slept around five in the morning. Anyway, enough about the bus trip, we reach Genting around 11.30. So we decided to go and buy our bus ticket back. Unfortunately for us, it was all full. In the end we decided to take a taxi back down.

We quickly rush to the cable car where it will take us to the peak. The line was very long and we had to wait for almost half an hour just to board the cable car. It was worth it though. Upon reaching the peak, we quickly ruch to the outdoor theme park. Bought our entrance ticket for both the outdoor and indoor park which set us back a hefty RM51. That really burn a hole in my wallet.

After entering the theme park, we quickly rush to the thrill rides. We went on almost all of the thrill rides. We wanted to try out the Go Kart but it was close. Some of the rides that we tried was the Space Shot, Cyclone, and most of the roller coaster they have there. My favourite ride is the Flying Coaster, where they position you so that you are facing the ground. WOW!!! That was some exciting ride. I like it so much that I actually when on it twice. It did not bother me that it cost me RM 10 for each ride. It was really worth the money.


My friend Joel Wong. He is the one that plan this whole trip


Us on the Flying coaster. It is an awesome ride. A must ride to go on the next time any of you visit Genting